Well, where to begin! The Summer holidays are almost over- they went too quickly! I have had such a good Summer. Why?- The people. I have spent time with such amazing people in such amazing places. These people lift me up, inspire me and genuinely make me happy like I have never experienced before.
I had a fantastic week in Mallorca with Joe's family. It was lovely to have some tranquillity and some sun. Although I didn't get as much of a tan as I had hoped, I would do it all again tomorrow if I could. If I end up showing this to Joe's family-- Thank you for a wonderful time :)
I have also spent some time with Joe in Bournemouth with my family from my mother's side. If anyone who knows me will know that my mother passed away when I was young so as a consequence of this, I do not see her side of the family as much as I'd like to; probably because she is not here to encourage me to do so.
Joe and I had a great time at my cousin's Spa hotel where we had a swim and a massage- It was bliss! We then joined the rest of my cousin's family on Poole Quay for fireworks which were stunning. Oh I can not forget the candle lighting festival in Bournemouth Gardens. Most of all, it was lovely catching up with everyone and to get to know my cousin Lucy's husband, Umit. A set of unfortunate circumstances resulted in Joe and I missing their wedding but luckily they saved us some wedding cake!
Here (below, left) is Joe lighting some candles and (below, right) is a quick 'here we are on the pier' photo.
I AM NOW A SECOND YEAR STUDENT! YIPPPEEEE.
University starts next week and I have also just enrolled in the local college to redo my GCSE in Additional Science. I am very nervous about that but University can not come sooner! Bring on the essays!
Joseph and I are all moved in to our new house and I am in love with it!! I am very excited to have the other 3 move in soon and to see everyone again, Especially Hannah (no offence everyone) but I have not seen her since May and I miss her loads! Can't wait to catch up.
(and this is where I get a lump in my throat!)
#PROUD TO LOVE.
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| Myself and Joe in Cala Millor, Mallorca 2013 |
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I have not spent a lot of time with my Nan and other close family members over Summer, which I am sorry for but I can not seem to be able to leave the love of my life. The one I am #ProudToLove. From my previous posts, you will probably know that his name is Joseph (or just Joe is fine, too).
Fact: Joe and I have the same initials but in a different order :D JSA and AJS <3 p="">
I would not change the time I have spent with him over the past year for the whole world. Some might say that it's clingy. In fact; I have been private messaged and told the equivalent! But my opinion is:
I CAN be without him, that's the difference; but I don't wish to be. We can both survive without each other, but what for? There is no reason on earth why I should be without him. This is real love. I have never been prouder to be in a relationship with someone. And to quote a Rolling Stone:
"I've been through it all, and nothing works better than to have someone you love hold you"
I have heard many times that Love cannot be described, only felt and experienced.. But I think that's wrong. There must be a way. So.. as part of the #proudtolove campaign. I'm going to tell you about the man I'm proud to love.
The biggest thing he has taught me, is how to love myself, unconditionally. Through my time in school, I'd forgotten how to do that. Then I realised, I was living the life that BULLIES wanted me to. Thanks to him, I am no longer afraid to have my head held high and all because someone loves ME! I am no longer afraid to love myself because when you do, you never know what can happen. I had no idea what love I had to give until the person I love, loved me back. Something I had found extremely hard to find in the gay community.
He is the MOST amazingly caring person in the world and beautiful, too! He is my inspiration and the one I aspire to be like. You can keep your Brad Pitts and your Ryan Goslings. I have someone outstanding, the world will never know. I just wish that my mum could have met Joe and to see how happy he makes me.
Being gay can be hard sometimes and a little scary; but knowing that someone out there loves you-You can do anything. Just turn your back on the hate that you went through and know that all things are possible! This time last year, I had no idea that my life would have changed in this way and I'm so grateful that it did. A part of me thanks God. The other part of me says it was fate. I always knew I'd meet my future husband (yes I said it) at University and I don't really know why. I had no idea it would happen 4 days in to University life here in Plymouth!
I was just a scared fresher, and a late-starting one at that! I thought I would sail through life and my degree course and stumble out the other side with a few scratches and bruises but oh my, has it not turned out like that. When I am with Joe, he makes me feel like I can fly. Joe refuses to sail through life. He makes me enjoy it but also plan for it. I am a logical thinker, so I like that! We both want marriage and children which is great as I know (from my past experiences) that a LOT of gay men don't. If you want a high quality standard of life, YOU have to make it. No one can give that to you, they can only support you. Although we may be young to settle down, neither of us want anything more, we're not big drinkers or partier's so that's what we plan for after university. We also have dreams to travel together.
Everyone who knows me should also know that I hate the saying "Life is too short".. although it is for some people, for the majority of us- it's not. Its the longest thing you will ever do. So my advice to you 'sailors-of-life' out there. DO plan things, but also, DO question things, study things and educate yourself and stand up for what you believe in, even if you stand alone. Everyone please know that it DOES get better and I don't just mean that it improves, but it get a whole lot better, better than you could ever have dreamed but you have to be around to see it, so never give in. If you choose to take your own life, you will never know the beautiful things that God and fate have planned for you. I believe that our paths are already planned out for us. We're just blind to it. So remember, If you're having a bad day, think of it as just that- A bad DAY not a bad life! If you don't like your life. Change it! Don't like your job? Quit! Want a dream house somewhere? Save up, work hard and move!
If you're being bullied, teased, taunted, put down or whatever is happening to you. remember, it gets soo much better. Those people who are treating you in such a manner are jealous. You're different, you're unique and you're special. If you were the same as everybody else, they wouldn't have anything to say! So keep calm and be #PROUD TO LOVE who you love.
Thank you for reading!!
Same Love- Macklemore & Ryan Lewis Ft. Mary Lambert
I was just a scared fresher, and a late-starting one at that! I thought I would sail through life and my degree course and stumble out the other side with a few scratches and bruises but oh my, has it not turned out like that. When I am with Joe, he makes me feel like I can fly. Joe refuses to sail through life. He makes me enjoy it but also plan for it. I am a logical thinker, so I like that! We both want marriage and children which is great as I know (from my past experiences) that a LOT of gay men don't. If you want a high quality standard of life, YOU have to make it. No one can give that to you, they can only support you. Although we may be young to settle down, neither of us want anything more, we're not big drinkers or partier's so that's what we plan for after university. We also have dreams to travel together.
Everyone who knows me should also know that I hate the saying "Life is too short".. although it is for some people, for the majority of us- it's not. Its the longest thing you will ever do. So my advice to you 'sailors-of-life' out there. DO plan things, but also, DO question things, study things and educate yourself and stand up for what you believe in, even if you stand alone. Everyone please know that it DOES get better and I don't just mean that it improves, but it get a whole lot better, better than you could ever have dreamed but you have to be around to see it, so never give in. If you choose to take your own life, you will never know the beautiful things that God and fate have planned for you. I believe that our paths are already planned out for us. We're just blind to it. So remember, If you're having a bad day, think of it as just that- A bad DAY not a bad life! If you don't like your life. Change it! Don't like your job? Quit! Want a dream house somewhere? Save up, work hard and move!
If you're being bullied, teased, taunted, put down or whatever is happening to you. remember, it gets soo much better. Those people who are treating you in such a manner are jealous. You're different, you're unique and you're special. If you were the same as everybody else, they wouldn't have anything to say! So keep calm and be #PROUD TO LOVE who you love.
Thank you for reading!!
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